Hey guys! I know it’s been FOREVER since I even logged on to Tumblr but there’s something I feel like I need to be honest with you guys about. I only hope you guys who really know me from my vids/ tweets will understand.
First of all, don’t worry! LOL The vids are still coming, no problems there. However, in the past few weeks I’ve made a big decision. Pretty much a life-changing decision (in some ways at least). I, Lady Luna, have decided that I am not going back to college in the fall. I haven’t graduated, although I did complete four years of fair grades, no flunking-out or anything like that. Now before you go telling me this is a horrible idea and I’m young/ naive blah blah blah, LOL… I thought that too at first. Here’s the thing though. I WAS NOT HAPPY THERE. When I say “not happy” I mean VERY depressed. My outlook on life was horrible!! I got up every morning and went to learn things I didn’t care about, work toward a career that I never really wanted, and be around people that were ENTIRELY different from me. Not bad people, I was the one that wasn’t adjusting well. I loved my first few years there, but around my junior year I just started getting into this funk that I couldn’t shake. Soon the thought of leaving home even one more time was my ultimate doom for the next four months that I would spend away.
Don’t get me wrong, I encourage everyone to consider college. If you want to be a teacher, doctor, lawyer, or the head honcho of a big corporation, that pretty much requires education, which is fine… if that’s the career you WANT. :) I had been letting people tell me my whole life what they wanted me to be. I had and STILL have a dream of being a writer (and now a YouTube partner, LOL) but SOOO many people have told me I could never make a living being creative. I had to do something “practical”. Teachers were the ones I heard this from the most, believe it or not.
Anyway, I don’t want to say I’m quitting, because my education isn’t really ending. I’m applying for jobs in a HUGE variety of places that apply to my skills, and ALL of them sound better to me than the career choices college was offering me. So what do I have to lose? I am a hard worker if it is something I am good at and truly involved in. I will scrub toilets if it means I can work my way up to the job I love in the end. I want to EARN this with my own two hands and not worry about everyone else’s opinion of my abilities anymore.
I hope everyone understands that college really was a great experience for me and I am so glad that I went for those four years, but now I know myself better. After much self assessment, praying, and weighing out my options, I KNEW my decision was the right one. My family has been more than open and supportive and are helping me get out into the real world.
I love you guys so much. Thanks so much for always being there and supporting me. :)
Oh, and this means I will have a lot more freedom over the content and quality of videos I make for YouTube!! YAY!!! :D